published on 11.03.2026 in Journal ・

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Happy March! Today is one of my closest friend’s birthday Chancey! Take a look at their work!: https://www.instagram.com/siriusstarrstudios/

I am a lil bit late on that haha! it’s the 3rd month ALREADY? What it feels like it’s already half the year has gone by. I am done with my little hiatus, so I should be posting more often now. Especially on here.

Before I get into that, here’s some pics of the doggos being doggos!

And of course Maze at the end! Maze is 10 years old! can you believe that!

Here’s the first picture I ever took of her:

I have a species called “sky demon” in my comic(name change will be revealed soon) and a few people have made fan characters of them! I drew them!

They belong to Whitney, Tim, and Nathan respectively~ I have a discord server that I’ll open up in the future sometime, but for now it’s just a place for me and a few close friends just loiter in.

Let me know if you guys want me to link to your social media!

here are their fan characters: Kiro, Frimas, and ….????

I plan to have a fanart section up soon as well as the French translation of Chapter 1 soon.

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Buuuuuuuut anyway, I wanted to talk about my personal discoveries during my hiatus and other personal news I decided to keep strictly to my website rather than posting all my personal information out for the world to see. I decided it was against my best interest and that it’s only cause me more grief than not.

I discovered that I feel like, despite a lot of my previous protests about where I am in life, I’ve come to the ultimate conclusion that I am where I need to be. I’ve also discovered that I’m not really into popularity or numbers anymore like I used to be. I used to want to be popular, not for the fame, but for the support. I felt like if I had enough eyes on me, I could use that to sustain myself. But at the end of the day, looking back in retrospect, I feel like it’s more of a blessing than not, that I haven’t become popular as an artist.

I honestly do not wish for it anymore nor will I seek it. I am completely okay with the occasional popular post when I draw fanart, but it’s not something I seek anymore. I don’t even bother to keep up with who is and who isn’t popular, I don’t even know who is and who isn’t a good or bad artist because I simply just don’t engage with the art community nearly as much as I used to. I sometimes get paranoid about re-posting stuff from artists because you never know who is controversial. All the drama involved just made me stop associating with it, granted a lot of what I go through it really just my own fault to begin with.

It would be nice to have a small group of genuine friends and fans that love my work more than a massive amount of superficial fans, I believe. And that’s okay.

I also feel a lot more at peace with myself. Especially after feeling bad for so long lately! I’ve finally let go of a lot of grudges I’ve been holding against a lot of people. I still have people blocked but, it’s so that I stay off their timeline as opposed to me not wanting them on my timeline. I’m pretty sure people who are not fond of me don’t want to see my work popping up, so I’ll keep them blocked for their convenience, and to just stay out of the way.

I don’t care to check up on people who aren’t in my immediate friend group anymore, I don’t have the energy for all of that right now. I’m trying to fix myself first before I start engaging with other people again. I’ve been in therapy, and it’s helped a whole lot. My therapist is helping with my severe depression and anxiety issues. I’m also seeing a psychiatrist for anti-depressants. I don’t want to take them for the rest of my life but I will be on them for as long as it takes for me to get back on track being myself again.

Once I am back on track, I can start engaging with the community outside of my circle again. I want to do things like draw people’s tiger boys again and draw random fanart for people. But the thing I have to have the most is patience with myself.

I am forever grateful to the friends who have stuck with me even through my worst times. I am genuinely blessed and lucky to have friends like you in my life, always making sure I’m ok and checking up on me every single day. I want to work hard to repay them as much as I can in a very meaningful way, same with the people who I see on social media who always fav my art no matter what I post. I want to do something special for them as well. Show my appreciation to the people who love my art. To give back in a way that is as meaningful as their support.

Thanks, everyone for reading and even commenting on my posts here as well! I read every comment on here so if I don’t reply don’t fret! I 1000% acknowledge it! Newer people need to be approved, but it seems the regulars’ comment go through right away now. Yay!